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|Saturday, February 5th, 2005|
Mom was in an accident
Those were the first words I heard when I dragged my fat, lazy ass downstairs. But because Shirley was the one to take the message, all I know is that Mom's not dead. I don't really know WHAT happened, how she is, or how bad the car is.
I hate not knowing. So what do I do to deal with my stress/anxiety/worry? I eat. And once again I'm eatting all the foods that I am SO not supposed to be having right after telling myself that the only reason I had some last night was because it was for Christopher's 14th Birthday - lasaugna and red velvet cake and worse! Real Pepsi. (I have no more diet)
What can I say? Food is my comfort. And I most certainly do NOT crave brocolli or cauliflower during times of stress.
I'm spineless, weak, and pathetic. I'll never reach my goal.
|Thursday, January 27th, 2005|
I totally CAVED!
It's true, and I was doing so GOOD! :sniff: I admit I slipped again this morning and had a cup of coffee but that was being an angel compaired to what I just did!
I was sauteeing an onion with the last of my fresh brocolli and cauliflower after getting home from work. I had already added a healthy dose of garlic powder but I also wanted to add powdered onion. (I know, stupid, ne? I mean, SERIOUSLY! I had a whole onion already cooking in the pan!) So I started to go through the cubbard looking for the onion powder and THERE THEY WERE!
How could I resist them? WHY didn't I resist them? There was no thinking involved on my part. I saw a package of Hershey Semi-Sweet Chocolate Chunks and then before you could say 'WTF!" I had eatten four handfuls! ARGH! I can't believe I did that! One tablespoon of chunks has 7 carbs and if I had eatten just ONE tablespoon, I still would have been under my carb total for the day. But NO! I had FOUR handfuls! I don't know how many tablespoons that made but I just blew my carb count right out of the water!
Mother of God, what the hell is wrong with me? How weak and spineless can I get? If I keep cheating like this, I'll NEVER reach my goal weight! I'll be doomed to be fat forever!
I had just started moving up into the 1st level of the OWL phase in which I can slowly start adding seeds and nuts to my diet depending on if I can eat them and not lose control or start gaining weight. But a cheat of this magnitude will stop ketosis in its tracks which means I'll have to start all over again with the Induction phase of the diet.
And on top of THAT I haven't ridden my exercise bike since, what? Sunday? I might as well kiss that beautiful cheongsam goodbye. I'll never have the stick-to-it-ness to get down to that size.
|Wednesday, January 26th, 2005|
I need absolution
Bless me Atkins, for I have sinned
It has been 26 days since my last transgression"
And what have you done, my child?
"Today I fell off the coffee wagon. I had one cup of half regular/half decaf with 1 half&half cream and three packets of splenda. Then I had a full robust cup with 1 half &half cream and 2 splenda"
And why did you do that?
"Atkins, I can't live, let alone function properly, on less than three hours of sleep. I was eyes-rolling-in-the-back-of-my-head tired. But in my defense, I CHOSE to have the coffee. It was not an addictive craving like it was before. :breaks down crying: I just wanted to feel alive again. What that so wrong?"
No, of course not. But you must now restrict your carbohydrates to no more than 20 per day for the rest of the week. Oh, and make sure you go to bed at a decent hour tonight. Do I make myself clear?
"Yes, Atkins. Thank you for your kindness."
May my blessing be upon you, my child.
"Amen to that."
*^-^* I swear I don't know where this stuff comes from half the time. LOL But I am sorry for drinking that coffee. I'll do better tomorrow.
|Wednesday, January 19th, 2005|
I cheated.. but not too much
I admit I was bad. I ordered the Hibachi chicken without BBQ sause at Sizzlers and they instead gave me teriaki sauce, which I think is just as bad, isn't it? I didn't use much, but I did uses some. I feel guilty.
Plus I lost my Debit card (I think I actually left it in the ATM machine) and I went into meltdown mode. I was angry and frustrated beyond believe and measure. So I had a chocolate Endulge bar, which I know isn't allowed during Induction.
Now I have a headache that is making me nauseaous. Is it possible that this is a side effect of having sugar after restricting it so severely?
|Monday, December 13th, 2004|
1 carb = ?
I've been under the impression that 1g Carb = 1 Carb
I'm very confused.
|Friday, December 10th, 2004|
I'm seventeen and weigh around 97 Kgs. Well I'm guessing it's gone up to 100 since I last checked, *sigh*. Let me explain.
About three weeks ago a couple of friends of mine persuaded me to do a strict extreme form of Atkins' diet, not following the conventional 4-phase one described on the official website. They told me NOT to eat any salads or vegetables even (they said that they all had carbs and that fibre turned into carb) and to eat as much as I want of chicken, meat, and well, that's about it. Nothing else. So I did that for three weeks and it went fine. I actually felt that perhaps I was gradually losing weight. More or less everyone that saw me after that while insisted I had started to lose weight.
But then I started PMSing a few days ago and the chocolate craving became too much. It's like medecine for me this time of the month. I literally burn up a fever and feel delerious if I can't get my hands on any chocolate. And so I gave in and ran down to the supermarket where I stuffed my face with chocolate. Since then (Wednesday) I've been indulging: noodles, a muffin, a Starbucks frappuchino, a salad today...
My questions are:
a) Is it ideal that, with my weight, I do the 'extreme' Atkins my friends recommended to me, with absolutely NO Salads/veggies just NOTHING but meat?
b) How difficult is it, after this PMS phase is through, to get back to the diet I was doing effectively for 3 weeks?
c) Is it alright, from now on, if, once a month, I have some chocolate when I get crazy like that?
Would really appreciate sincere responses, thanks in advance.
|Saturday, September 4th, 2004|
forgive me Atkins for I have sinned. Going to college has really messed up my routine and for 2 weeks now I've been completely off the wagon. I will go back on soon though.
|Wednesday, May 5th, 2004|
3rd day of induction. I had some chocolate cake with a scoop of icecream... I split it with my sister. and a few bites of lemon pie. but i'm not gonna let that get me down too much. although now i'm tired with a headache =(. well, let this be a lesson learned. Tomorrow is a brand new day! ^.^ Current Mood: blah
|Sunday, April 4th, 2004|
All or Nothing
I can't believe I did this. Note to self: Being drunk and high on Atkins=Bad Idea.
Not because of the alchohol itself, but because of the inhibitions it relaxes.
Alright. Heres the nitty gritty of badness.
I have been on induction about 2 and a half weeks, feelin great, running every other day, lost about 12 pounds and then I go out last night once I get my drink on and smoke a few J's
FRENCH FRIES from denny's, a pudding snack, a sandwhich with low carb bread, half a spoonful of nutella, maple cookies.
There you have it folks. This is me BEFORE Atkins, why am I doing it now? What compelled me to go back to this sadness? I feel so empty, so ridiculous. I wish I could puke it all back up, turn back time. I know that my cravings are going to hurt so bad and Im going to have to suffer through the pain of the first few days of induction all over again. I wieghed myself and I have gained three pounds from this binge. And the sad part is--I hardly even tasted the food. Why did I do this to myself? I am so agro. Current Mood: depressed
|Wednesday, March 3rd, 2004|
I had some Chex Mix. I couldn't help it. It's the only thing I've craved in the six months I've been on the Atkins diet. This is the first time I've had it since I started... and the last. But no worries. I still have the rest of the day to be good.
|Tuesday, February 3rd, 2004|
I was a very baaddd boyyy
I had no food with me at work, I have been on the "plan" for a monthly today (actually), I have lost just over 25 pounds, I seem to the hit a plateau ...
I ate 2 Little Debbie heart shaped cakes they were giving away in the break room at work and at dinner I ended up at Subway and got my old standard sub ... 12" Honey Oat with turkey and ham, provolone, honey mustard, lettuce, tomatoes, green peppers, and onions ... I could have gone for the wrap, but this just was too much of a temptation. I did eat only half of it with the bread though ...
Back to strict induction tomorrow, time for another fresh start. Maybe I'll drop another 25 pounds in 30 days. :)
285/257/200 Current Mood: crushed
|Thursday, January 1st, 2004|
Okay here we go. It's Jan. 1st. I'm starting my diet again after I kinda let it fade off into the distance a few months ago. I lost 30lbs on my last diet and gained 5-10 back over the holidays. I'm hoping to lose even MORE weight than I gained. Wish me luck everyone!
|Wednesday, December 10th, 2003|
Oh the humanity
Why oh why do Krispy Kreme's have to taste so good? Current Mood: frustrated
|Wednesday, November 19th, 2003|
However these are planned, and i have enough will power to hop right back aboard the Atkins wagon and do what i should do. If i'm going to San Francisco, i cheat, but i also don't try to go for the really carb filled items. I do wonder if maybe i should just call myself a "low-carber" instead of someone who does Atkins because i technically am not following it if when i go out i have carby things (though i do limit them).
Anyway, i've never had nausea, headaches, weight gain, boils, pestulence, famine, war, and apocalypse...
Seriously though, I've not had any of the bad experiences with cheats like some have, and even if i've gained a couple of pounds i seem to lose it after working out and eating sensibly (it's all water weight of course). Even after having some thai food (curries for the meal), which came with green tea ice cream topped with whipped cream and served with deep fried bananas, i didn't seem to drop out of ketosis either.
It feels good to let that out!
|Thursday, October 16th, 2003|
I post in this community too often!! Tonight was full of decadent, carb-laden indulgence. I ate: two chocolate cookies, 5 frozen peeps, and a Luna bar. I also ate tons more nuts and cheese than is allowed on Atkins. Oh well, tomorrow will be day 1 of Induction again.
|Friday, October 10th, 2003|
I'm on my 5th day of induction and I had a strong craving for something sweet and/or crunchy. What I really wanted was orange juice, but that's a major
no-no. Instead, I had a couple handfulls of nuts (peanuts, walnuts, almonds), which calmed my craving down. Still, I feel really guilty, as this is the first time I've broken my diet so far. I've lost 5 lbs. and have 41 to go, but I know that today's little binge will slow me down. Do you think I had enough carb to re-addict myself? I don't feel any symptoms of high blood sugar.
|Thursday, October 2nd, 2003|
I have read the book, I follow the recipes.. I am not getting bored, but anxious. I have only lost 7 pounds in 2 weeks and I think I should have lost more. Can I be retaining water?
I walk to work and I have a Dance dance revolution machine which I play on religiously.
I am drinking water, taking Chromium, L-Carnitine, etc..
What can I do to jump start and start losing again?
Also... what do you all who are on Induction do when you have to eat fish for breakfast I don't think I can do it.
thanks for the help ...
(crossposted.. bear with me)
|Wednesday, July 30th, 2003|
Last night I was having horrible awful womanly cravings. Instead of hitting the L-Glutamine like I should have, when hubby called me up and invited me to meet him at Mario's Pizza House, I did.( I didn't eat pizzaCollapse ) Current Mood: disappointed
|Saturday, June 28th, 2003|
|Wednesday, June 18th, 2003|
my mom makes this DIVINE chocolate chip cheesecake, and two nights ago she baked one to take to work. then she brought home the leftovers.
munch munch munch. it was sooo yummy.